Happy Anniversary…already?

I can’t believe I just hit my one year anniversary for my blog. It all started as a way of therapy for me. I was in a new place, new job, and going through somethings emotionally. I would usually just write in my journal but decided to take a different approach. I give credit to my Mom who would tell me you need to write a book after she would read a 150 character facebook post. Gotta love Moms. So I thought blogging would be a good way to test her idea. 

Why did I ever believe I had something to say, or that people would want to read it? All I know is I will try to be more consistent. I have always kept a journal. I love to write things down on a date and go back and read them again. It is my way of keeping up with my goals, progress I have made or how I was feeling at that time.  

Grammer police, don’t arrest me.  I will do better.  My goal is to focus on better writing this year.  Thanks to all that have ever read, like, commented anything I have ever written.  

My hope is that I will encourage or inspire you in someway through my own experiences.  I am just learning, growing and figuring it all out as I go.


Just thinking…

Growing up in church, I didn’t hear to many feel good messages. You know the messages that teach you how to go after your dreams, obtain wealth, be motivated and inspired to get through your week. The sermons that tell you your blessing is on the way, it’s your season and the favor of God is on your life. 

Now don’t get me wrong I love these type of messages. It’s just as a child, What I mostly remember hearing was you need to get right with God. My grandfather praying “Cast the devil out of my mind!” Sermons telling us to get before the Lord and stay on the altar, cry out to God for deliverance. They preached about Hell. They preached about consecration. Most sermons were a rebuke, or about repentance. It wasn’t nothing for a prophet to call you out and tell you your life’s story….and no one was offended because that person was ministering under the power of God.

Which do your prefer??

All I know is I love God, and He said if you love me you will keep my commandments. If you don’t love God you are excused. As a Christian, I am not perfect, but by the grace of God I believe he is able to keep me from falling. I never want to sin purposefully. But if I do sin, I know I need to ask God for forgiveness. I don’t believe I can just live my life doing whatever and still go to Heaven, which is my ultimate goal. Again, if you don’t believe you are excused.  

I am a #believer…of God’s word! 

Choose who you will serve!

Betrayed By A Kiss

If you live long enough you will most certainly at one point or another have to deal with betrayal. Betrayal is apart of life and more often than not it comes from the ones we love the most. The definition of betray simply means, according to the Merriam-Webster, to give information about (a person, group, country, etc.) to an enemy or to hurt (someone who trusts you, such as a friend or relative) by not giving help or by doing something morally wrong. Plainly speaking to the act of betrayal means you are unfaithful and disloyal. 

Why would you think you would be exempt? Even Jesus was betrayed…

So how do you respond when betrayal arrives at your front door?

Brightside Somewhere

As I sit alone in a crowded restaurant waiting for my food in a room full of strangers my mind starts to wonder. I start to look around at all the people who seem to be enjoying life while I am sitting back watching mine pass me by.  As I reflect, I can’t help but wonder how did I get here? 

Jesus said, I have come not just to give you life but for you to have life more abundantly. Is it that I am expecting too much out of this life? Is it not enough to have life, health and strength? Is it wrong to want more? I have been spending most of my time just waiting for the day to be over, just to repeat the same cycle again. I know that I have the power to change my life, but the real question is  what  is God’s plan for my life?

I know I have purpose, I know there is a reason for my being here…right? I thought college would give me purpose, I thought having a career would give me purpose, I thought getting married would give me purpose, maybe it is having children….? What will it take for me to be fulfilled?

An ocean of unanswered questions is all I have. This is not some attempt for pity or attention. What do you do when you are good at most things but a master of none? What do you do when life didn’t go as planned and you wonder was it all just false hope? I have always tried to do right thing. 

So my mind tells me to just keep going, keep trying, keep writing, keep holding on to the promise that God will never leave you or forsake you. Keep believing that even in the hard times that things will work together for your good. Know that when you don’t feel God, He is there! Remember when it looks like there are only one set of footprints in the sand, that those were the times He carried you!

One day I will look back over my life and see how it all made since. Until then I will keep hoping that my spirit will flame on. That a fiery passion will ignite and consume me for that great God-appointed time to help others.

On another note, with all the tragedies and horrible things really going on in the world I will stop thinking about myself. I will be grateful for my life and I’ll just sit here waiting alone in a restaurant full of strangers for my dinner …singing to myself “there is a bright side somewhere…”



You, Lord, are all I want! You are my choice, and you keep me safe.  You make my life pleasant, and my future is bright.

Psalms 16 CEVDCUS06


I Ain’t Never Scared!

When I read this scripture I immediately thought of the Bone Crusher song “I Ain’t Never Scared”!

Why should we be scared? Why should we be fearful when Jesus is with us! Fear is an illusion. If you fall, you can get back up. Take a leap of faith to be courageous.

I am really going to meditate on this scripture all week to retrain my mind that I am strong and that I can do what every I want.

Whatever goals you want to accomplish this week, this month, this year…just do it! Do it without fear. God is with you. You don’t have to be afraid.

Military Diet: Lose Up to Ten Pounds in Three Days | CalorieBee


I am back on my health kick! I am starting a diet tomorrow that I did back in high school. It worked for me then, I hope it works for me now. The goals is to be smaller by the time my vacation starts next month.

My birthday is in 4 weeks! Let’s see how many pounds and inches I will lose!

The goal is to workout 5 days a week and stick to this diet plan! I am posting this blog to give me the motivation! The struggle is real!


Life Liberty & Justice For All

We live in a county where we have the illusion of freedom. We are really on liberty’s leash…

What ever happen to justice for all. It is the year 2016, and we still have two Americas. On one side some feel as though racism does not exist and on the other side we feel it is all to prevalent. If you are black in America you have unwritten rules made up of things you can and can’t do. If you don’t abide by these rules you could end up dead. Will racial profiling every be a thing of the past? 

We watch charges be dismissed again and again only to prove that a life lost has no value. It was their fault they say. They should have never resisted.

This war we fight is spiritual. Spirits of fear and rebellion are at work. Drawing us further apart. I pray for compassion, I pray for peace. In a world that is full of hate and anger, I pray that we learn to show love. I pray we can show sympathy. I pray we see people for who they really are. 

“Jesus love the little children. All the children of the world. Red, yellow, black and white, they are precious in his sight. Jesus loves the little children of the world.”